MOTHER AND BOBBY KNIGHT [sun, 10-11-26]

CHRIST IN WINTER: The Irrelevant Reminiscenes of A Very Old Man—MOTHER AND BOBBY KNIGHT [sun, 10-11-26]

 

The Indiana University basketball season starts today, sort of, so it is worth recalling that my mother once took a course in coaching basketball. At IU. From Bob Knight.

That probably sounds strange, to anyone who knew Mother or who knew Knight. Until you remember that they were both outliers.

Mother liked basketball. No sports for girls in her day, of course, so they had to play vicariously. For Mother, it was through her brothers, especially her oldest brother, Ted.

He was born in 1900 and played before the Francisco, IN school had a gym. Just having a school at all then was not to be taken for granted. When Mother graduated, her class actually dedicated their yearbook to the taxpayers of Center Township for providing a school for them. That was after Uncle Ted’s playing days.

 

Uncle Ted played basketball in a barn. That’s how we get the basketball term, “barn burner,” a game so exciting that the barn catches fire, at least emotional fire. Mother talked of Uncle Ted’s games like that.

When I started on the staff of “Oak Barks,” the Oakland City High School newspaper, as a lowly fourteen-year-old, editor Benny Albin gave me the job of doing the “years ago” column, as in Ten Years Ago, Fifty Years Ago, Etc. In our archives we had the school papers from all the Gibson County schools, including Francisco. Going through the archives, I discovered that Uncle Ted had indeed been a standout player. He had often been high point man. In games that ended in scores like 6 to 4!

Of course, the game was slower then. Whenever anyone scored a basket, someone had to climb up to the loft to get the ball, since the baskets were actual baskets, with the bottom still in.

Francisco was named for a Mexican who was helping to build the Eerie Canal. He lived in a hut there. As other people began to settle in the area, they referred to the place as Francisco’s. It is often called Frisco. There are several members of the Pond family, Mother’s family, who still live there.

When Mother was growing up in Francisco, it had about 600 residents, about the same as today, but in those days before automobiles it had two hotels--to serve the drummers, [1] two doctors, a bank, a barber, several restaurants, several grocery stores, several churches, a blacksmith, etc. And, of course, the infamous “company store” of the coal mine owners.

 

I think Uncle Ted started his general store to try to put the company store out of business, by giving miners, like his father, decent goods at a reasonable price.

Mother and Dad went to live in Frisco in their last years, because Mother’s 7 siblings gave her the family home when Grandma died, but Frisco, like all small towns, was rapidly declining. When the last grocery store closed, my brother moved Mother and Dad to a house he owned in Bloomington, IN, only a couple of blocks from the Indiana University campus.

That’s where Bob Knight “taught,” [2] so that’s where Mother bought a pink sweatshirt with Indiana University on the front, and walked over to campus to listen to Bobby explain the motion offense.

 

She finally got what she always wanted; she was a college girl.

John Robert McFarland

1] Called “drummers” because they traveled on the railroad, from town to town, “drumming up” business. The opening scene of Meredith Wilson’s great The Music Man pays tribute to them.

2] In his early days, before everyone knew who he was, when people asked Bob what he did, he replied simply, “I teach at IU.”

THE FEMINIZATION OF THE CHURCH [F, 10-9-26]

CHRIST IN WINTER: The Irrelevant Observations of An Old Man—THE FEMINIZATION OF THE CHURCH [F, 10-9-26]

 

 

In my discussion group, at a national conference, a young woman pastor--I’ll call her Julie--was making the case for women in the ministry. “I know the names of all the children in my church,” she said. “That’s why we need women pastors.”

I was flummoxed. Julie was pastoring a church of a hundred members and knew all the children. Good. But I was pastoring a church of a thousand members and knew all the children. I knew a lot more kids than she did, and I was a lot more male than she was. I had always known the names of all the kids in my churches, from when I started preaching in 1956, which was also the year the Methodist Church decided it was okay for women to be preachers, whether they knew the names of children or not. [1]

I didn’t say that, though, about how this tall, deep-voiced, bearded man was just as concerned to minister to the children as Julie was. Because that wasn’t really what she was talking about.

It was the 1970s. Equality for women was the big and important issue. She was just trying to say that it was okay for women to be preachers. Unfortunately, Julie felt that she had to find something unique about women pastors to justify their existence. The only thing that matters in a preacher is competence, “gifts and graces.”

I kept my mouth closed in that discussion because I was on Julie’s side. I had been an advocate for women in the ministry from 1956 on, although I really had not had opportunity to do much about it until I became a campus minister in 1964 and began to encourage college girls to go to seminary. [2] [Yes, college students were boys and girls back then.]

The problem now is—and notice that I’ll quickly say it’s not really a problem—is that we’ve gone all the way from saying it’s okay for women to be preachers to having a feminized church. Men really don’t have a place in the church anymore. That’s probably a good thing.

[When I say the church has become feminized, a female institution, I am fully aware that the church has always been a feminized movement, unacknowledged as such, from the moment when women were the first ones at the tomb on Resurrection morning.]

In important ways, the church has always been a female institution. Not in its leadership structure, of course, but in its work structure. That’s always been almost entirely female. That’s why the church has been so successful. Let men think they are in charge while women actually do the stuff is a guaranteed recipe for success.

The Roman Catholic and Southern Baptist Churches are smart. They know if women get out of work positions and into leadership positions, the men will run like scared rabbits.

Here’s the stinger—a feminized church isn’t a bad thing. Men have been in charge for a long time. We’ve messed things up rather badly. No, I have no naive notions about women. They are full of original sin, too. They’ll mess things up just as badly now that they are in charge. Isn’t that what equality is all about, equal opportunity to steer the boat into the ice berg?

Maybe there is one problem. Women think church power is worth fighting for. Not anymore. The church used to be relevant in society but it is no longer. Churches are closing left and right. Being in charge of the church now is like being president of the buggy-makers association.

The church is not irrelevant because of its increasing feminization. The irrelevance and the feminization just happened to come along at the same time. But the women who now fight over church power don’t realize that’s it is like dogs fighting for the last chicken bone.

Men don’t have a place in the church anymore. That’s okay. They have football on Sundays. That’s a spiritual experience, especially after eight beers. [3]

John Robert McFarland

1] I am in a uniquely qualified position to understand this and comment on it since my 70 years as a preacher have coincided with the 70 years the Methodist church has ordained women. Also, I am tall, male, and straight, and comfortable with white privilege.

2] The first was Joan Tuttle Smoke, from Indiana State U. She became an Episcopal Priest, and I preached at her installation. Her email address is “holysmoke.”

3] This leads into my plan to have churches share buildings with taverns/bars. More on that in four days.

 

 

WHEN DO WE BECOME ADULTS? [W, 10-7-26]

CHRIST IN WINTER: Reflections on Faith & Life for the Years of Winter—WHEN DO WE BECOME ADULTS? [W, 10-7-26]

 

Anna Quindlen, in her novel Every Last One, has her protagonist say, “So much of friendship is being in the right place at the right time.” So it was with Darrel and me.

I first met Darrel when we were both in fifth grade, although because of different birth dates, he was one semester ahead of me. [1] It was a pleasure to watch him grow up. I didn’t think about it at the time, of course, because I was so concerned about my own growing up, but looking back, yes, it was a pleasure to watch him grow up.

When is it that we move from childhood to adulthood? Puberty? In some ways, but not always. With a ritual, like bar mitzvah or confirmation? Or commencement, from junior high? Or senior high? Or college? Or when you get a girl pregnant? That did it for Darrel.

We had parted ways early in high school because of girls. He had a car and money. It wasn’t a great car, and he didn’t have scads of money, but it was more car and money than I had. Thus he always had a girlfriend, or several. I did not. Also, he was very good looking and a basketball star. Those attributes helped to attract girls.

We had not stopped being friends, but he and I were busy with different lives. Nonetheless, I watched him, and learned.

I appreciate more now than I did in high school that Darrel was always faithful to me as a friend. From age ten, he said I was his best friend. He never replaced me with a different best friend. He always saw me that way, even though he entered that handsome jock-clothes-cars category and I did not. But when it came to girls, I was always disposable. More than once I walked home from a school event, late at night, in the ditch beside the highway, and then on mud or gravel roads, 3 miles, because he had connected with some girl and totally forgot about me and went off to Lover’s Lane with her.

I knew that sometimes he used me, but I didn’t mind. I knew he was the alpha male and I was the wingman. This was especially true when he was a junior and wanted to date a cute 8^th grade girl. [Our high school started with 8^th grade.] Judy was an only child with protective parents. But I had a reputation as a nice boy. As long as Judy dated Darrel when I was along, either via double date or as a chaperone, Judy’s parents thought it was okay.

Darrel didn’t just put up with me because he got something out of it. He had accepted me as a friend clear back when we were ten years old, and he never wavered from that, even though our lives diverged in significant ways. I was his best man, for a wedding that started a fifty-year marriage.

He got a degree in mechanical engineering from Purdue, and worked for as an engineer for 29 years. But his real passion was music, especially Dixieland. He played trumpet and tuba. Even in college, and during all those years as an engineer, he really thought of himself as a musician. He even directed a church choir.

He retired from engineering in his early fifties to play Dixieland music all over the world. It was coming back from a gig on a snowy night that the car slid off the road and a brain injury ended his life some weeks later. He died much too young, at 72.

Is this a column about Darrel? Not really. I’m trying to distinguish when and how we change from childhood to what we are as adults. Because Darrel held onto me as his friend, even in those moments when he abandoned me, I got to see him grow up. His ups and downs were greater than my own, and so I learned a lot about growing up from watching him. Friends do that for you.

Shortly before he died, in his brain-injured state he looked at his wife and said, “I don’t know who you are, but I know you’re the best thing that ever happened to me.” When is that we become adults? Perhaps when we realize that our friends have grown up, and taken us along with them.

I have CD of Darrel playing Gospel Dixieland. It’s one of my most prized possessions.

John Robert McFarland

1] In those days, kids born in December through May started school in January, at the start of the second semester of the school year. Children born April through November started in September, after Labor Day.

 

 

ONE OF US HURTS [M. 10-5-26]

CHRIST IN WINTER: Reflections on Faith & Life for the Years of Winter—ONE OF US HURTS [M. 10-5-26]

 

Helen had a dream recently in which I was in great pain. She awoke to learn that she was in great pain [tooth]. That’s what happens when you’ve been married 67 years. If one of you is in pain, you aren’t really sure which it is.

I was going to go to our dentist and say, “One of us hurts. Can you figure it out?” I was afraid, though, that he would say, “Sure. I’ll work on one of you and charge both of you.”

Immigrant Elon Musk says that what is wrong with America is that we are too empathetic. You don’t make any advances if you feel the pain of others, he says. You have to ignore the pain of others. He does a good job of living what he believes. Makes you wonder why he immigrated from South Africa, where they have a better history of ignoring the pain of others.

Humans have the capacity to be self-aware. Narcissists and sinners don’t. Sinning is mostly failure to recognize who we really are.

I recall a preacher story about a little boy who got mad because his mother did…whatever mothers do to try to control little boys. He went to the yard and kicked his little puppy and then sat down to pout. A moment later, he felt a tentative licking on his arm. The little puppy had come to comfort him, even though he had abused it. He ran into the house with the puppy in his arms and cried, “Mommy, I’m mean! I’m mean!”

Redemption is accepting who we really are. If we are not embarrassed by hypocrisy and lies, we cannot accept salvation.

Jesus said, “The well have no need of a physician.” If you don’t feel your own pain, you’ll die physically. If you don’t feel the pain of others, you’ll die spiritually.

John Robert McFarland

 

 

WHAT I LEARNED ABOUT INCLUSION IN 70 YEARS AS A PREACHER [Sa. 10-3-26]

CHRIST IN WINTER: The Irrelevant Reminiscences of An Old Preacher—WHAT I LEARNED ABOUT INCLUSION IN 70 YEARS AS A PREACHER [Sa. 10-3-26]

 

My 70 years in the ministry were the same 70 years that the church and America became inclusive. My next 70 years will be dealing with the backlash against being inclusive—in church and nation and world.

I’m going to use American Methodism as representative for what happened in the whole nation. How the Methodists went from a church that kept women out of the pulpit by keeping them in the kitchen, how we kept black churches in the back pews of the organization, how we kept gay folks out of everything while claiming that they were “persons of sacred worth,” how we went from a church of exclusion to a church that actually practiced “Open Doors, Open Minds, Open Hearts.” And how we paid an institutional price for that.

I started preaching in 1956. That was the year the Methodist Church agreed that it would be okay for women to be preachers. This year, my Conference is presided over by a woman bishop, and my District Superintendent is a woman, and my congregation has a woman preacher. [It also has a man preacher.] Open Doors.  

When the Methodist Episcopal [ME] Church, and The ME Church South and the Meth Protestant Ch reunited in 1939, we agreed to let black congregations be part of the denomination, but not of the regional conferences. They were segregated organizationally into what was called The Central Jurisdiction [CJ]. White Methodists, from bishops on down, didn’t have to go to meetings with black Methodists. The CJ was a denomination within a denomination. When Brown v Board of Education was passed in 1954, some Methodists said it was time to abolish the CJ. In 1972, the CJ was finally abolished and black congregations became parts of regular annual conferences. Open Minds.

That same year, 1972, a couple of boys in my Wesley Foundation told me they were going to go to a gay bar to find out if they were gay. I advised against it, for a lot of good reasons [safety, including from police who liked to go there to beat up on gays], and for a bad reason. Like almost all the rest of society, I thought homosexuality was a choice. I told them they should not make up their minds too soon about whether they were gay.

Who was I to disagree with The American Medical Assn and the American Psychological Assn? They both claimed that being gay was some sort of mental illness.

A lot of research was done from 1972 to 2024, when we finally realized that being gay is not a choice but simply the way you are born, and there is no reason for gay folk to be kept out of any part of the church. Open Hearts.

A lot of good people are scared of things that are not easy to understand. Gender and race and sex are areas where our views are almost entirely emotional. Every time the Methodist Church became more inclusive, we lost folks who don’t feel comfortable with open doors and minds and hearts. That loss is important, not because the organized denomination is smaller and less powerful now, but because it is always a grief when the Body of Christ is broken for any reason other than sharing the body in communion.

The story of Jesus is a story of inclusion—women, Samaritans, prodigal sons, tax collectors, lepers, sinners… For 70 years, we’ve tried to be better followers of Jesus. We’re a smaller church, but we’re a better church.

John Robert McFarland

 

EVERY SINNER NEEDS A FRIEND [R, 10-1-26]

CHRIST IN WINTER: The Irrelevant Reminiscences of An Old Preacher—EVERY SINNER NEEDS A FRIEND [R, 10-1-26]

 

Younger preachers, and some not so young, felt free to come to me with their problems because they knew--sooner and better than I did--that I would never be in a position to affect their job.

In Methodism, pastors are not “called” [hired] by a congregation. Each pastor is appointed to their place by a bishop, with a helping hand, sometimes a heavy hand, from a District Superintendent [DS], who is sort of an assistant bishop, able to be in closer relationship to pastors and churches because of presiding over a smaller geographical region.

Technically, the DS—and sometimes the bishop--is a pastor’s pastor.

It’s hard, though, for a pastor to go to the bishop or DS for help with problems, either personal or churchly, and confess how deficient professionally or sinful personally they are. When appointment time comes, you want the bishop and DS thinking only of the façade you’ve built that indicates you should have bigger and better appointments.

I had a reputation for understanding the ways of bishops and DSs even though I wasn’t one. [1] Folks knew that I could hear their problems, and perhaps give helpful advice, without ever being in a position to use what they told me against them.

I also had a reputation as a trouble-maker who hated meetings. The purpose of bishops and DSs is to avoid trouble and go to meetings. [2] No one would ever consider me as a bishop or DS. So, I was safe. I heard a lot of worries and confessions from colleagues.

Through the years, I became a sort of pastor to pastors without portfolio. I never had an official position or authority to pastor pastors, but often I would get a call--sometimes from a colleague I barely knew, because our conference was quite large—and the caller said, “I have a problem. I don’t know what to do. They told me I should see you.” Sometimes I knew who “they” were, and sometimes I didn’t. Regardless, I tried to be helpful. I tried to be a friend.

When I went back to congregation pastoring, after a decade in campus ministry, I was surprised how lonely most of my fellow pastors were. I had never been lonely. The first 3 years I was preaching, I lived in a college dorm. Then I got married, and went to seminary. Helen was always my best friend, and the seminary was a natural fellowship. When I was in campus ministry, I wasn’t much older than my students, and we had a great friendship community that continues to this day.

Then, after all those years on campus, I became the only pastor of my denomination in a small town. It’s hard to be friends with people in a congregation, people who decide how little your salary should be. So I looked for friends among the other preachers.

But it’s hard to be friends with pastors of other denominations, too. Preachers are wary of one another, afraid that a more attractive shepherd might steal their sheep. That wasn’t a problem for me. I didn’t worry about other pastors stealing my sheep. If one of my members found a better church home, that was a good thing. All the better for them. So I was able to befriend pastors of other denominations, too.

I took friendship for other pastors as one of my ministries. I got no “points” for doing so, either with my congregations or my denominational leaders, but I got a great deal of personal satisfaction from those friendships.

I’ve told before of how our bishop, Leroy Hodapp, told me he was going to appoint me to the Investigation Committee, kind of the equivalent of Internal Affairs in a police force, following up complaints of cop corruption. I said that wasn’t a good idea because I would be too sympathetic with folks who did wrong. “That’s why I want you on there,” he said. “Every sinner should have one friend.”

It’s lonely being a sinner as a preacher. Preachers are supposed to be above sin, and we aren’t. I was always glad if I could be a sinful colleague’s friend.

As Christians, we’re supposed to live like Jesus. Most of the time, I’m not very good at that, but at least I have gotten to be a friend to sinners. [3]

John Robert McFarland

1] Often, at meetings of the clergy women of our conference, I would be the only man present, by invitation, because they thought I knew stuff, since I hung around with the bishop and DSs socially. Actually, I never knew as much as either they or I thought I did.

2] There is a great difference between meetings and gatherings. It’s only meetings I hate. I love gatherings.

3] Mt 11:19, Lk 7:34.

 

THE IT FACTOR, PART II [T, 9-29-26]

CHRIST IN WINTER: The Irrelevant Reminiscences of An Old Man—THE IT FACTOR, PART II [T, 9-29-26]

 

As you know from last column, old friend Quentin said that I have IT. He could not define IT, but he said I accomplished things in a town where I really did not fit because “…you have IT.” I was closing in on 90 when he said that. In all those years I had never considered that I have any IT. So, what could he mean?

First, most of who and what we are is not at conscious level. We get our personalities from nature and the early years of nurture, years we can’t remember. Many things happen then that we would take to the therapist if we could remember them. So, any IT I have is probably just an accident of those unremembered years.

Anyway, I have finally decided that by IT, Q meant that I was present.

Certain of my family members will get a huge laugh out of that, because at home I am often present only in my own mind. But, starting in fifth grade, I discovered that I could be a friend. It was then that I started being present. In the company of others, I paid attention. So much so that as years went by, sometimes people would accuse me of reading their minds. I wasn’t trying to. I just paid attention…and remembered everything they said and did. I thought that was what a friend should do. [1]

By “present,” I guess I mean depth. Since in the column before this one, I told you about two group situations where I did not show my IT, let me tell of a different one.

Gary Putnam was campus minister at Iowa State U when I had the same position at Illinois State U. We were in the same discussion group at a conference of campus ministers. After a day of working on some issues together, he said, “John, the thing with you… there are others who can see what’s behind a situation, but you see what’s behind what’s behind.”

It is dangerous to use a phrase that was used to describe the IT factor of Jesus to describe one’s self, but I need to use here that description of Jesus as “having authority within himself.” [Mark 1] I always assumed that everyone knew what was right and what was wrong, what was just and what was unjust. I acted on that assumption. I think that was my IT factor. It wasn’t arrogance—I alone am the one with the truth. No, I believed that we all have the truth, that we share in the same truth together. I was present for sharing that truth. [2]

As I have written before, I recently asked old friend Jim Kiefer about why anyone would think I have an IT quality. I’ve known Jim since he was an eighteen-year-old student in my campus ministry at IL State U. Later we were ministry colleagues for 20 years. Without hesitation, he said, “You have a deep voice, and you make people laugh.”

So much for having IT.

John Robert McFarland

1] My “presence” with others started with fifth grade school bus friends, not with pastoring, but it served me well as a preacher. People of all ages, even old people, accepted me as their pastor when I was just a teen, because I was present to them.

 

It was a dual-edge sword, though. Through the years, some people liked me because I really “got” them. Others disliked me for the same reason. They thought I could see through their mask and recognize the less pretty stuff underneath. I really couldn’t, but folks like that always reveal their real selves in one way or another without realizing it.

 

2] I have since learned that is so innocently ignorant, that we all share the same truth. I have not lived in the “all” at all. I lived in a very small niche of society, a very thin slice of humanity, called liberal Christianity. By liberal I simply mean open-minded. I thought the United Methodist slogan—Open Doors, Open Minds, Open Hearts—was perfect. Not many people want to live that way.