CHRIST
IN WINTER: Reflections on Faith from a Place of Winter for the Years of Winter…
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I’m reading Nadia
Bolz-Weber’s PASTRIX. It’s a
fascinating book. I recommend it. I think everyone should read it.
Unfortunately, it twists my nose way out of joint. I wrote a similar book, THE STRANGE CALLING, on the same subject. It’s just as good, just as well
written, just as interesting. [Just sayin’] But Bolz-Weber gets lots of
accolades for her book, and hardly anyone has ever heard of mine.
It’s really quite sad that
someone my age isn’t over that sort of pettiness by now.
Why the difference? Why
does Nadia get all the attention and I get none? Because I have lived a happy
life and she’s had a miserable one. Also, she has tattoos.
Nadia Bolz-Weber is the founder
and pastor of the ELCA House for all Sinners and Saints in Denver, the Lutheran
Anne Lamott, except she grew up in a fundamentalist home and Lamott grew up
churchless and faithless. They both lived lives of booze and drugs and
promiscuity and misery, what conservative evangelicals call “building a
testimony,” and I’m really jealous, because now they write books about how they
have finally gotten some faith, humbly, to be sure, and everybody says, “How
nice. How interesting. Let’s buy their books and give them lots of money and
praise.”
Except me. I say “How
about me?” and everybody says, “Your story isn’t interesting. Nice family.
Great wife and children and grandchildren. No addictions. Great friends. What’s
your problem?”
Well, my problem is I’ve
got no problem!
Yes, I grew up in a family
that was very poor, financially and emotionally, with parents who didn’t know
very well how to deal with that, but I had great sisters and a great brother, a
huge and extremely supportive extended family, friends who always had my back,
a tax-supported welfare system that kept us alive and a tax-supported school
system that gave me a great education, and a wonderful little open-country
church that was the epitome of “Open Doors, Open Minds, Open Hearts.” At pickle
ball I make people half my age cry for mercy. I’ve had the same persistently
kind and generous wife for 56 years. My daughters are beautiful and my grandchildren
are brilliant. My friends never disappoint me or dessert me. [Well, sometimes
they dessert me, but it’s with gooseberry pie.]
What’s wrong with that?
Well, you can’t get much of a testimony, or a best-selling book, out of it. In
terms of testimony, I’ve got nothin’.
So go ahead and read PASTRIX. It’s a great story, beautifully
written, excellent theology. [Reader alert: It also has bad words.] And read
Lamott. PLAN B, or any of her similar
books. Again, great stories, beautiful writing, good theology. Just ignore me;
I’m used to it. Or maybe… I can write a book about how I lived this life of
pettiness and pathetic envy but overcame them and… Oh, but first I have to do
actually overcome… maybe I’ll just get a tattoo…
John
Robert McFarland
johnrobertmcfarland@gmail.com
The
“place of winter” mentioned in the title line is Iron Mountain, in Michigan’s
Upper Peninsula [The UP], where life is defined by winter even in the summer!
[This phrase is explained in the post for March 20, 2014.]
I
used to keep a careful index of all the things I told in this blog so that I
would not repeat. That has become unwieldy. Now I just trust to… what’s it
called… oh, yes, memory. Sorry about repeats.
I
have also started an author blog, JUST WORDS, about writing and reading.
Writing guru Kristen Lamb says author blogs are counter-productive, that blogs
must be “high concept.” I don’t know what that means, but consider JUST WORDS as
a high concept blog in preparation for the publication, by Black Opal Books, of
my novel, VETS, about four
handicapped and homeless Iraqistan veterans who are accused of murdering a VA
doctor. http://johnrobertmcfarland-author.blogspot.com/
I
tweet as yooper1721.
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