I
have been thinking about sins and forgiveness quite a bit as my denomination,
The United Methodist Church, has met in a special General Conference to deal
with its homophobia problem. It has failed.
It
made me think of Mrs. Plummer. [Not her real name.]
A
woman from the church I was pastoring back when asked me to call on Mrs.
Plummer, in the local nursing home.
“She’s
getting pretty old,” my church member said, “and she knows she’ll die before
long, and she thinks she’ll go to hell because she committed the unforgivable
sin.”
“Do
you know what it is?” I asked.
“No,
she was too embarrassed to tell me.”
“Doesn’t
she belong to another church?” I asked.
“Yes,
she’s a Baptist. She’s afraid to talk to her pastor about it. She says she’ll
talk to you, though.”
I
knew Mrs. Plummer slightly, because I called in that nursing home often, and
she was one of those nursing home ladies who takes care of everybody else in
there. I was a good choice for her to talk to, because she knew me enough to
trust me, but not so much that she would be embarrassed.
Well,
that wasn’t quite the case. First we had to go off to a far corner in an unused
room so no one would see us talking. Then she would talk only in symbols about
whatever unforgivable sin she had committed, apparently a long, long time ago.
She had been trying to atone for it ever since. I gathered that it had
something to do with sex, as was often the case with women of her generation,
but I was having difficulty figuring out her approach, and it didn’t make any
difference anyway. The point was that she thought she had committed the unforgivable sin.
“So,
you sinned against the Holy Spirit,” I said.
She
looked blank. “What do you mean?”
“Jesus
says that the only unforgivable sin is the one against the Holy Spirit.”
“But…but…
what is that? I mean…”
“The unforgivable sin is to think you are always right, because then you cannot be
forgiven. You can’t be forgiven if you can’t admit you committed a sin. That is
the sin against the Holy Spirit. You just told me you committed a sin, so it
couldn’t be against the Holy Spirit, because you admitted it. You can ask God
to forgive you, and He will.” [1]
Her
relief was so complete. For about 50 years, maybe 60, she had that
“unforgivable” sign hung around her neck, upside down, where only she could see
it. A woman who had read the Bible daily for all those years, and never seen
what Jesus actually said. That is such a shame, but it’s what we do. I guess
it’s a sin, but it’s forgivable. That’s good news.
John
Robert McFarland
1]
I try to be careful about using male—or female—pronouns for God, but I knew
“He” would be what she related to.
Such a perceptive and kind thing that you did for this lady.
ReplyDeleteCheryl